Saturday, March 01, 2003

at heLL inhaLing second hand smoke w yoLand and ah-kor..

but no where else to sit.. oh weLL.. such is life..

had a one hour tutorial on WW1 earlier today.. was quite interesting.. but made me realise i really need to do in depth research & reading on this man..nv reaLLy read on WWI coz basically, i dun lyk WWI la.. haha.. now got no choice unless i wanna look and/or sound stupid in class..

gotta do my readings for chinaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa~ shd be interesting but i juz cannot get down to it.. crappies..

going safti later for someone's comm parade.. dunno y i agreed to go oso.. not lyk we r in each other's picture anymore.. haha.. jOkes.. juz hope that it dun lyk pour at the wrong times.. haha.. den will be blardy troublesome..

(yoLand says HIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!) i officially declare her psychotic... too much JS corrodes ur brain.. DUN MAJOR IN JS!! later become like yoyo.. not such a gd idea.. haha..

yesterday honey hon ask me to not swear so much.. haha.. but i realise i onli really swear when i blog.. i dun spew vulgarities lyk out loud.. not really anyway..


oh welL.. gtg liao.. befOre i totally kilL d batt of ah-kor's laptop..

Thursday, February 27, 2003

here's a little something for all my girlfrens out dere..

u know who u guys are. this is for you! thanks for keeping me going! love you aLL to biTs!! -hugz- u babes rock!

A mother and her just married daughter sat down together one day. As they talked about life, about the wedding invitations, about marriage, about the responsibilities of life and the obligations of adulthood, the mother clinked the ice cubes in her glass thoughtfully and turned a clear, sober glance upon herdaughter. "Don't forget your girlfriends," she advised, swirling the tea leaves to the bottom of her glass. "They'll be more important as you get older. No matter how much you love your husband, no matter how much you love the children you'll have, you are still going to need girlfriends.

Remember to go places with them now and then; do things with them. And remember that "girlfriends" are not only your friends, but your sisters, your daughters, and other relatives too. You'll need other women. Women always do."

'What a funny piece of advice,' the young woman thought. 'Haven't I just gotten married? Haven't I just joined the couple-world? I'm now a married woman, for goodness sake, a grown up, not a young girl who needs girlfriends! Surely my husband and the family we'll start will be all I need to make my life worthwhile!'

But she listened to her Mother; she kept contact with her girlfriends and made more each year. As the years tumbled by, one after another, she gradually came to understand that her Mom really knew what she was talking about. As time and nature work their changes and their mysteries upon a woman, girlfriends are the mainstays of her life. After 50 years of living in this world, here is what I know about girlfriends:

Girlfriends bring you chicken curry and scrub your bathroom when you need help.

Girlfriends keep your children and keep your secrets.

Girlfriends give advice when you ask for it. Sometimes you take it, sometimes you don't.

Girlfriends don't always tell you that you're right, but they're usually honest.

Girlfriends still love you, even when they don't agree with your choices.

Girlfriends laugh with you, and you don't need canned jokes to start the laughter.

Girlfriends pull you out of jams.

Girlfriends help you get out of bad relationships.

Girlfriends help you look for a new apartment, help you pack, and help you move.

Girlfriends will give a party for your son or daughter when they get married or have a baby, in whichever order that comes!

Girlfriends are there for you, in an instant and when the hard times come.

Girlfriends will drive through blizzards, rainstorms, hail, heat, and gloom of night to get to you when your hour of need is desperate.

Girlfriends listen when you lose a job or a friend.

Girlfriends listen when your children break your heart.

Girlfriends listen when your parents' minds and bodies fail.

Girlfriends cry with you when someone you loved dies.

Girlfriends support you when the men in your life let you down.

Girlfriends help you pick up the pieces when men pack up and go.

Girlfriends rejoice at what makes you happy, and are ready to go out and kill what makes you unhappy.

Times passes.

Life happens.

Distance separates.

Children grow up.

Love waxes and wanes.

Hearts break.

Careers end.

Jobs come and go.

Parents die.

Colleagues forget favours.

Men don't call when they say they will.

BUT girlfriends are there, no matter how much time and how many miles are between you. A girlfriend is never farther away than needing her can reach. When you have to walk that lonesome valley, and you have to walk it for yourself, your girlfriends will be on the valley's rim, cheering you on, praying for you, pulling for you, intervening on your behalf, and waiting with open arms at the valley's end. Sometimes, they will even break the rules and walk beside you. Or come in and carry you out.

My daughter, sisters, mother, sisters-in-law, mother-in-law, aunties, nieces, cousins, extended family, and friends bless my life! The world wouldn't be the same without them, and neither would I.

When we began this adventure called womanhood, we had no idea of the incredible joys or sorrows that lay ahead. Nor did we know how much we would need each other. Every day, we need each other still.

Pass this on to the women who help make your life work. I just did.

I love you all so much.

If you love someone you say it...
You say it right then, out loud,...

or the moment just...
passes you by.

--My Best Friend's Wedding

Monday, February 24, 2003

my laptop keeps farking stalling.

i feel lyk screwing ibm upside down and inside out.. oh weLL..

had a farking bad day.. so if u think u're going to be affected by this pLs stop reading NOW..

argh. the bad weather really didn't help things.

why is it that stuff always blows up in my face? i know i shd juz abide in the Word and let His love and peace and joy be in me always. but i'm not lyk some really fantastic ppl i know who can smile and smile and smile no matter wad shit has happened.. i try to be like this yet i fail lyk 80% to 90% of d time.

ok i admit tt i do say stuff w/o thinking sometimes.. but most if d time i do.. now at least. think tt's one thing tt has really changed abt me.. that compared to 2 yrs ago, i really think before i open my mouth. but its lyk sometimes it juz slips out.. and den before u know it, things blow up and u feel lyk shit for a long long while.. not knowing wad is going to happen. not knowing where anything is going. not knowing wad u urself are feeling. not knowing any-farking-thing..

ok basically i'm having a blardy farked up day. 1st, last nite after cg was bad. i felt sick. lyk really sick. den slept. den woke up feeling lyk shit. i regretted taking 2 and not 20 panadols before sleeping.

BUT i went to sch anyway, and felt better after d HY2207 lecture.. HY2207 rocks, would make a good number plate! haha.. den had french tutorial. den had lunch. den had js2224 lecture. its darn boring. resorted to 1st copying everything he flashed den transcribing everything he said so i wun fall asleep.. sigh.. i cannot sleep during lecture. i cannot skip lecture. not this sem!! not ever actually..


when i was having lunch, my mom called and asked me if i want to wear this pendent w the symbol of buddhism or wadeva... u know.. d swastika thing.. i think she's been looking out for a nice one since my parents saw me wearing a cross in 2002.. the cross tt went missing v shortly after..
so anyway, i toLd her no la.. den she went on to tell me its lyk how pretty and yada yada la. den she say if i'm not going to wear it she's not going to buy it. so i told her, its ok dun buy it coz i'm going to wear it. den she say "u wanna die ah! dun wanna wear this den wad? wear cross ah??" i was going to say yes, i wanna wear a cross, but not good idea. so i juz told her i'm not going to wear a chain. and yada yada. and she hung up. BUT lyk 5 sec later, she called again and asked am i sure i dun want it! and yada yada.. and i told her she v funny la. ask me if i want, den when i didnt give a "correct" answer, she cannot accept.. but anywayz, she eventually said ok she wun get it YET.. sigh.. but in d least when i came home she nv mention it la. sighz..

argh. this is getting to be a really long and unpleasant post. dun read it if wad i say dun please u. i juz need to get stuff off my chest. sighz.

i feel so misunderstood and misinterpreted sometimes.. and so.......... i dunnO la!!!!!!! argh. fuck.

trying to plough thru my readings now. history is still ok. but the js one can kill me. argh..

oh well.

i muz abide in the Word, and stand fast in faith. to hold on to His promises. to lay down everything into His hands. i am a God chick.. a princess.. a daughter of a King above all kings.. and no eviL can come near me.

listening to "You Said" by hiLLsongs ausTraLia.. ^_^